Thats him...he has that familiar look... originated from Singapore.. a father of 1 son, he made a mark on his name in the neighbouring country. One of the celebrities who has the least gossip by the media about his personal life. And that....thats my favourite Ferhad's song. I don't usually buy CDs, but this time am getting his latest album which he dedicates to his family...how sweet can that be:)
Ros.r is feeling musicalSunday, June 29, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
This is it
So this is it. I took the big final step not to look behind. I made my decision for others to be happy with the people important to them...cause I know I am not important in their lives. Deleted all histories and may HE helps me erase the history in the mind too. I have to keep the faith...why Allah did not agree for situation to turn the way I wish it would be. HE knows best..not me.
Or maybe its HIS sign for me to work harder to uncover the hijab so that there is no hindrance for me to reach to HIM? That is possible too...and I know is the real reason for it all. There are alot of things which the self has enlighten but at times its just us who try to rationalise it and brush things aside to fit how we want it to be. My self tells me that I have to work hard. Don't give up as long as HE gives my soul another chance to come back to my bod for each new day.
Sacrifice is sweet to the taste when you know people dear to you are happy with what they have.
Ros keeping the peace within herself and with others dear in her life
Or maybe its HIS sign for me to work harder to uncover the hijab so that there is no hindrance for me to reach to HIM? That is possible too...and I know is the real reason for it all. There are alot of things which the self has enlighten but at times its just us who try to rationalise it and brush things aside to fit how we want it to be. My self tells me that I have to work hard. Don't give up as long as HE gives my soul another chance to come back to my bod for each new day.
Sacrifice is sweet to the taste when you know people dear to you are happy with what they have.
Ros keeping the peace within herself and with others dear in her life
Friday, June 27, 2008
Gentleness in the heart
The heart....some says the heart is the hardest part of the human body. Thats the raw heart which when thrown in the den, the lions would consume hungrily. But one says..the heart is actually the gentlest part of the a human body.
The heart which did not want to wake the cat although it was sleeping on his turban.
Its the heart which gives the benefit of the doubt for others' goodness cause he knows he is unable to give a fair judgement of the person.
Its the heart who willingly donates a 'fatheha' for the souls it doesn't recognise.
Its the heart which is full with compassion. A compassion not only for the humans but to all living things, even the ant which bit his finger.
Its the heart which is satisfied and thankful for what ones has although its just sufficient to fit the basic.
Its the heart which overcomes self-ego cause he knows a powerless servant is not fit to be proud of what is lent to him in the name of Ar-rahman and Ar-rahim.
Its the heart which emits light from within...just like the heart of our Rasullulah s.a.w.
Do not be quick to judge that being adamant of ones decision shows the stubborness of the heart. 'Cause you do not know what the others have been enlighten of in their decisions.
When the conscious pricks and feels ashame for what was hidden inside the heart, make a bow and seek for forgiveness to the One and Only. For He will show the way and only He can help you erase that black spot which has tarnished the heart fit for only the divine love.
Ros.R's reflection and self reminder
The heart which did not want to wake the cat although it was sleeping on his turban.
Its the heart which gives the benefit of the doubt for others' goodness cause he knows he is unable to give a fair judgement of the person.
Its the heart who willingly donates a 'fatheha' for the souls it doesn't recognise.
Its the heart which is full with compassion. A compassion not only for the humans but to all living things, even the ant which bit his finger.
Its the heart which is satisfied and thankful for what ones has although its just sufficient to fit the basic.
Its the heart which overcomes self-ego cause he knows a powerless servant is not fit to be proud of what is lent to him in the name of Ar-rahman and Ar-rahim.
Its the heart which emits light from within...just like the heart of our Rasullulah s.a.w.
Do not be quick to judge that being adamant of ones decision shows the stubborness of the heart. 'Cause you do not know what the others have been enlighten of in their decisions.
When the conscious pricks and feels ashame for what was hidden inside the heart, make a bow and seek for forgiveness to the One and Only. For He will show the way and only He can help you erase that black spot which has tarnished the heart fit for only the divine love.
Ros.R's reflection and self reminder
Friday, June 13, 2008
Sssscrap
Picked up a new hobby. Have not got started but I don't think I will get addicted to it. Just something for the creative juices to flow. We will see how it goes..
Pink pink pink all the way. Still in love with candy bar pink from NK 7360. Obsolete model and functions but when you are in love, it takes a longggg longggg while to replace whats in the heart.
Lamour Rose Outz...
Pink pink pink all the way. Still in love with candy bar pink from NK 7360. Obsolete model and functions but when you are in love, it takes a longggg longggg while to replace whats in the heart.
Lamour Rose Outz...
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
The Dark Side
Before the existance of blog, there is the homepage I kept in the form of e-diary. I remembered those pages today.
Then...they reflect me 8 years back.
Now... status remains, aim becomes blurred and innocence gets corroded.
She needs help and only self can help me.
Ros unveils 5 masks from the The Dark Side...
Monday, June 09, 2008
Life Reflection
How time past by my life and I did not even noticed. Thats how time is nowadays nearing to its end. If I could turn back time, I would go back to my years in college, in Uni and do things differently. Nevertheless, I have to be thankful for where I am in now and only Allah knows the hikmah for not having things the way I would want it to be changed. I have yet to identify and see the hikmah of it all. Still waiting to see it all...
Goshhhhhhhhh, I miss studying! I am glad to be off loaded from exams when I see the kids mugging for them. Nevertheless, I miss all those lectures, those tutorials, those research and long nights of studying. But if I am to study now, what will it be? How am I to put it into practice in time to come? I see studying now in more than just for passing exam. Its objective and practical side has to be crystal clear before I get myself committed.
Maybe need not be studying formally. Studying new skills do make my heart beat a little bit faster. I am done with driving. Maybe scrapbooking would be the next ideal one. Anyway, I would need to pay around 50% of its course fee. It is still worth the try. After mastering the skill comes the challenge. Its challenge is not how to put those pretty collage and get my fingers smeared with glue or pocket got burnt spending on those pretty papers and ribbons.. Its challenge comes in balancing life purpose.
We are alive for a purpose. There is the superficial and non superficial side of our mission on Earth. The superficial side is more into achieving worldly dreams which will shatter once the soul departed from the body. There is the more in depth side about life. I have been enlightened. Its now a challenge or rather a jihad against myself to attain my real purpose for being given a breather.
It has been a long 10 years though. I have watched my innocent-self changed. For all that has happened, there are some within my control. Allah has spoken to me through the people I have met...Alhamdullilah He has spoken to me through my heart and mind.
It has never cross my mind that I am a serious person. However, now, I am more than certain that I am indeed of such. There is a lighter side of me but it resufaces itself once a while. The lighter side of me surfaces itself in those no worries days especially during school days. Maybe its someone who can make me laugh is what I need.
Obek says keep the faith. Its not as easy as its sound, thrust me. But I know that is the key to happiness. I have to persevere...and that is a jihad.
On the lighter note...I enjoy the music video below. It makes me :) and gets me connected to my lighter-self.Goshhhhhhhhh, I miss studying! I am glad to be off loaded from exams when I see the kids mugging for them. Nevertheless, I miss all those lectures, those tutorials, those research and long nights of studying. But if I am to study now, what will it be? How am I to put it into practice in time to come? I see studying now in more than just for passing exam. Its objective and practical side has to be crystal clear before I get myself committed.
Maybe need not be studying formally. Studying new skills do make my heart beat a little bit faster. I am done with driving. Maybe scrapbooking would be the next ideal one. Anyway, I would need to pay around 50% of its course fee. It is still worth the try. After mastering the skill comes the challenge. Its challenge is not how to put those pretty collage and get my fingers smeared with glue or pocket got burnt spending on those pretty papers and ribbons.. Its challenge comes in balancing life purpose.
We are alive for a purpose. There is the superficial and non superficial side of our mission on Earth. The superficial side is more into achieving worldly dreams which will shatter once the soul departed from the body. There is the more in depth side about life. I have been enlightened. Its now a challenge or rather a jihad against myself to attain my real purpose for being given a breather.
It has been a long 10 years though. I have watched my innocent-self changed. For all that has happened, there are some within my control. Allah has spoken to me through the people I have met...Alhamdullilah He has spoken to me through my heart and mind.
It has never cross my mind that I am a serious person. However, now, I am more than certain that I am indeed of such. There is a lighter side of me but it resufaces itself once a while. The lighter side of me surfaces itself in those no worries days especially during school days. Maybe its someone who can make me laugh is what I need.
Obek says keep the faith. Its not as easy as its sound, thrust me. But I know that is the key to happiness. I have to persevere...and that is a jihad.
Buzzzz....Ros is tapping her feet..lighter note check : 7.5/10
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Body Mind Heart and Soul
I came across this from a site. Its Shaykh Muhammad Imran's words...
The body and heart are pure and blameless in themselves.
However, when our heart becomes embodied with worldly temptations, we tend to forget the nature of our hearts. Thus, we become attached to this world and develop spiritual diseases such as greed, lust and pride.
These spiritual diseases show us the ugly attributes of the heart like thorns growing in a field.
In order to beautify yourselves, avoid these attributes and implement finer qualities which will bring you closer to Allah Ta’ala such as kind heartedness, humbleness and gratitude.
Every person yearns for a meaning to life and for that which will make his heart sound.
The only way to do this is to purify one’s self.
- Shaykh Muhammad Imran
To purify one's self starts from the heart. The heart which contain worldly desires, temptation, having bad opinion on others, hate, ego etc has to be bleached with zirk before the black spots at its bottom get erased completely.
At the perk of each zirk comes a test. A test which can come in any unthinkable form. A test which either remain us at the perk or higher, keep us stationary or a failed test which toppled our status from where we are. When there is unlawful submission to worldly desires, more and more black spots emerged, the more distance the heart gets from its Creator and all the zirk done leads one to no where. The jihad against self has failed.
Personally, to me jihad in my life is to get those black spot erased. Only when they are erased, Nurr can emerged from within. To look at a person who has been embodied with nurr makes the heart feels at ease. Only then the mind, the heart and the soul are at peace with each other. The purest love, which is more then just a feeling but also submission of the heart, will be able to overcome obstacles. Sacrifices then come sweet to the taste.
Ros.R drowned in verses of love
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